It’s about 20 minutes to midnight on June 30th, 2017–less than a half hour until the official start of Camp NaNoWriMo, and here I am frantically trying to make sense and order of all my20170630_233113.jpg scribbled notes and computer files related to this novel idea of mine.  I’d had this great plan of having a nice clear outline by tomorrow morning, but never quite managed to create one.  I’m already worried that I’ve bit off more than I can chew, and it hasn’t even started yet.  I recognize the signs of the writing performance anxiety I’ve dealt with every time I seriously tackle writing a novel.   I can’t let it win this time, let it scare me into losing the staring contest between me and the blank computer page.  Time to find my writing sisu (perserverance, determination, or strength of will in Finnish, the language of my paternal forefathers & mothers).